These emotions are taking over me...

There is so much to write about.For some reason I can only come to think of one person.My emotions for this person have come over me like a tidal wave.I want to let go and only hold on to him and not let go.Than again I never want to make somebody the ground I stand on I want them to always be right there by me and be the first to catch me when I begin to fall.I am myself.I am carefree around him, my main comfort zone.Crazy to think he was the last person on my mind that I would actually fall in love with.I guess you could say he was the "nice guy" who was there for me when my so called "devoted boyfriend" decided that I wasn't what he was looking for after a year long relationship.I never look for sympathy though, I never have been one to look for it.But I have always wanted that one person who is always gonna be there for me at all cost, and just love me for me and not for the body they see.I get tired of guys looking at me than instantly wondering what it would be like to see me in bed.Don't get me wrong physical attraction is important but I mean is it Lust or Love?

The honest truth.I am completely down and out for this kid.Everything in me and everything that I have wanted.Never want him to become everything that I completely stand on, just the person who is gonna be by my side and catch me before I fall.And yess ladies and gentleman...

I AM IN LOVE...

One year later,and we finally decide that its best that we move on now,or else we'll never move on.As much as it hurts to realize that were truly letting go of each other.I find comfort and happiness in all this.I still want you in my life, but for you that's to hard to handle, knowing that I'm not just yours.So through all this I have learned so much and will never forget any of this.For a long time your the only person that I focused on,you were my everything.I want to thank you for all the love you gave to me.I told you that you will probably never grasp the level I'm on,and if you do it will probably be too late.Funny how those words came true.I hope that you can move on,because its not fair that I have moved on and there you are still holding on to the memories of what used to be.I guess what I'm tryin to say out of all this is, I'm never gonna forget you no matter how hard I try.I felt every emotion possible with you,your a person who made me realize that I am vunerable to emotional pain.But I leave you with this and nothin less...

Keep your head up,cause better days will always be there.We've seen them together...

Amanda x0x

Amazing how people realize how fast something can be taken away from them...

                                                                                                or should I say easily.

This weekend I truly realized that.I never took the love for granted, because I knew with the drop of a dime that he could be gone.But I always thought that he would be here regardless of things.

When you get a call saying the person who is your world,your heart,the person that is in you,the love of your life.That they were just in a car accident but you have no idea what the hell to begin to think because distance seperates you.Your thoughts come in to play and you instantly think negative instead of positve.

Hold tight to the people who matter to you the most.Don't let anything phase you&&don't ever take things for granted.

My boyfriend whom this happned to is doing good.But I just realized a lot of stuff out of the 24 hours in which I heard nothing but that he got into an accident.Thank you to the people who were there for me.I love you guys.

To the love of my life: I love you baby.Your my everything, don't you forget that.Summertime is still gonna be great.

Simple things can become so complex...

But I can take on anything.